I walked down that old alley
Bright and sunny
Looking for a long lost past
I walked long
I walked far
And I walked hard
I did it by myself
Then I called my friends
And then I did it alone
Once more
Just to be sure
But there is no turning back
There is no return
It was evening then
The shadows were long
I looked hard
And I looked alone
I tried to catch some old shapes
But those shapes are gone
Long gone
Defeated I sat there
As night fell
And it was dark
The stars came out
It was vicious again
Deep in despair
I let myself go again
If I can’t have the best
If I cant have it again
I will be here every night
With new friends
I smiled that grim smile
And I walked off
For nights I returned
Every night
Days held no meaning
All the light was gone
Gone from everywhere
I need not see it
It did not matter anymore
And so I was this person
Who only came out at night
Nights were beautiful
All the parties, the dresses
The colors, the scent
It didn’t feel the same
It still hurt
The light was lost
But everything shone
The glitter, the glamour
The whispers, the wine
People oh so fine
For so long
And then one night
In all the haze
I sat unfazed
I did not slip
Into the nightmares
On the couch that night
I stayed up all night
From the roof of my dim lit world
I saw the sun rise
I saw it breaking the grey
I saw it break into colors new
Violet, indigo, pink, orange
So many hues
I watched it till it was bright and sunny
I watched it many nights since that day
The colors
They heal
The light it heals
I can never go back
The sun may never feel the same
But it still comes up everyday
There is a new light every morning
And its never the same
But it is still light
And still beautiful
But I am a creature of the night
And it hurts my eyes
Maybe someday
I will love it again
But not just yet
Coz it hurts
Everyday.
